I only use this term because I haven’t taken my meds in 4 days and I can tell.
I find it so ridiculous that they can have this kind of control over a person
Without those fucking pills, I’m a train wreck
Every mess up and mistake comes back to haunt me with a vengeance
I just feel so buried
It’s like everything suddenly went dark and I don’t know what the cause is
Fuck this hormonal shit
Fuck me for thinking its other peoples jobs to fix me
Fuck them for not giving a damn in the first place
At least you’ll be happy that I’m so damn miserable right now.
That’s all that matters in this twisted and fucked up tragedy isn’t it?
I’m sorry I have crazy moments I can’t control. I’m sorry I care so fucking deeply that all I want you to do is smile. I’m sorry I can’t keep my eyes or my hands off of you. I’m sorry I get stupidly jealous. I’m sorry I question myself so much. But I’m really sorry that I keep having to say sorry.
For only a short time, the promotion of “heavier” women and all body types being beautiful was a healthy thing for society. We had become so obsessed with skinny being the “perfect” thing to be, everyone needed a friendly reminder that a healthy body has fat. A healthy body eats daily, and responds when its hungry.
However, this bombardment of overweight and sometimes obese women as being better than the stick figures we were becoming is absolutely ridiculous. Yes, we need to be accepting and loving towards one another. Yes, a healthy body will have weight and curves and rolls that we associate as being “fat”. But the promotion of these poor sickly women who have fallen prey to the advertisements and billboards shoving food they don’t need down their throats, is absolutely ridiculous.
We shouldn’t be addressing so much of what is and isn’t beautiful. It’s a focus on health. Obesity is an enormous health crisis. Almost equally as destructive as eating disorders; and now these adolescents are on the rise to, instead of reach a healthy and natural weight, disregard that health because they believe at least their peers will find them attractive if they eat (even if they don’t need it).
Food can be as hurtful to someone’s body as any drug. And people with obesity unrelated to other health problems, are addicted to it. But unlike someone who is addicted to drugs, someone who is addicted to food ( more specifically food that is unhealthy or unnatural for you) has that addiction shoved in their face after a step out the front door or a click of the television remote. Chocolate, grease, processed and altered health inhibitors are going to be seen and promoted much more than heroin or even amphetamines.
We need to stop applying looks to everything. By promoting the “body positivity”, it puts more light on the fact that we’re such shallow creatures and need to feel good about our unhealthy bodies because of other people.
I am not putting any hate out toward people who are clinically overweight. I am not putting any hate out toward people who are clinically underweight.
I just think we need to address both as unhealthy, or healthy. And completely disregard the terms “beautiful, ugly, perfect,” when discussing something that has everything to do with your health, and nothing to do with your social status.